it's just another day wherein you wish you weren't there.

it's just another day where i wished i was someone else.

that sinking feeling that fills my guts everytime i just feel so out of place. god, i hate that feeling so much.  i really hope everything will be over soon... question is, how soon is soon?

i interrupt whatever you're doing to give you this:



yes, that's my dream school, PCHS.

i was fixing my school stuff and arranging the brochure things in my bag.. then i saw this.  i was really disturbed by the memory of last friday because of the guy from this school who gave us an orientation. ugh. i wish to erase that memory NOW. as is NOW.

moving on, i was really intrigued by this school that i decided to stop and read their brochure... and i found myself rolling on the floor laughing.

check it out for yourself:


check outthe the bachelor of science in psychology, baby. (aka BS pscycho.) LOL.


have a nice day. :)

finally, i've finished writing the god-forsaken essay for ADMU.  yeah, it kinda took a long time for me to register that i don't really have to be an achiever to be able to produce something worth reading.. well, not that i'm bragging or anything, but i guess after weeks of staring at the blinking cursor, seeking opinions friends, and spending time alone contemplating, i was finally satisfied with my work.

i guess they would at least consider me, right?

oh god, it's so hard to go to college.  i'll really miss my high school days.

i kinda hate applying for universities and scheduling dates for the entance exams. i hate selling myself to the schools.  i hate paying the fees. i basically hate the whole process.

speaking of.

i realized that the future CAN be bought.

the things that we do now (applying for good schools, spending LOTS of money, and practically dying to get in to our desired universities), are investments for the future.

what's the point of this all? i don't know.

so that our children would have a good future too? so we would be able to eat?  happiness? money?

our lives are nothing but replays.

the world had seen this before. it's not surprised. probably it saw my case somewhere else before... or maybe this one happened too years ago a few blocks away from us.. who knows?

what bothers me?

nothing.

just another question in mind:

is this all necessary?

i finally know what it is.. (obviously.)